I am Never Enough, but That Does Not Stop God's Grace
I am often crippled by the painful thought of not being good enough. The concept makes my heart drop, my mind muddle, and my lungs gasp for air. It scares me. I wish with all my might it wouldn't, yet I have found myself laying awake, staring at the ceiling, grappling with this idea too many times to count.
In a moment of particularly weighty worry, a situation of this nature exposed a truth I knew - that I had heard time and time again - yet this time it smacked me upside the head.
I'm not good enough.
This fear that held a subject that categorized many of my worries - future career, grades, relationships - was a reality. Not a new reality either, it had always been true. And while I strive for confidence, success, and what many call an irrational millennial dream, this truth will still remain.
Fact of the matter is, you're not good enough either.
I type that harsh phrase with love, as I'm sitting in the same boat. As human beings, we are flawed. We are sinful. And nothing we can do can save us from that sin. We aren't good enough to fix our imperfections.
Ecclesiastes 7:20 says: Indeed, there is not a righteous man on earth who continually does good and who never sins.
I can get perfect grades, stay financially wise, be the best friend to ever roam the earth, and know what I'm doing after graduation (don't get your hopes up), and still not be enough. Because I am still a human being. I am still in need of a Savior.
But thankfully, we are not left to place hope in ourselves. If we were, our ship would certainly start to sink. Instead, we are to place our hope, trust, and worry into the hands of Jesus. The Almighty God, Creator of the world we so humbling walk upon -- He's our hope. He's good enough. More than enough, really.
Romans 5:8-10 says: But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Since, therefore, we have now been justified by his blood, much more shall we be saved by him from the wrath of God. For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, now that we are reconciled, shall we be saved by his life.
Jesus is enough. Jesus is enough to save my soul for eternity, to love me despite my imperfections, and to call me His own,
With this knowledge, my worries may not slip away into a misty abyss. Being a follower of Jesus does not come with ruby slippers to click our troubles away. But with this truth I can acknowledge how silly my worry is. Placing that fear, that anxious mindset, and the future that is ultimately not mine to form in His hands -- that is the proper course of action. Those same hands gave us the sun, the earth, and the rest of our universe. Those same hands mold every child. Those same hands pen a plan for you and me. Those are the hands we ought to give our fears to. Because while we are not enough, He is.